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White Collar
04:09
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Disaffected knowledge worker
You take up gardening to reconnect
Practice mindfulness of the present
Romanticize the past
and fear for the future.
Do you fear for the future coming to pass?
After you left a frantic voicemailI
I must have called you back a hundred times
You texted back and told me you were working late,
Just a little stressed from all the deadlines
Your therapist assures you it’s normal
Just try to focus on the objects in the room
“Everyone’s a little frayed this time of year
No shame in feeling a little unglued”
I want you to knowI remember us before
Accruing debt on unsubsidized loans
I want you to feel light as the air
I want you to disappoint your boss
I love you. You are alright by me.
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2. |
Wander
02:08
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Here in the dark, wander around
Taking a home back to yourself
We’re older now
Like it or not you were here, my only friend
Calling it out
Singing above
Tearing me up
Like we were kids
Giving it all to the golden day
Living the part we were bold enough to face
It was a lie, you know
How could we ever amend the way we came,
with or without?
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3. |
Taken Apart
04:23
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Little black humming from your phone
Thought you were fine, now you know
Feel a dull longing in your skull
You’re tamping it down now
Like you don’t see it stealing time
You want it to be another ride
Can’t afford living with the sight
So you’re letting it burn
I don’t wanna keep dragging it out, taking a knee.
If you’re here, then why would you roam?
You wouldn’t dare—
I would have held it all again
Do you keep waiting for the source?
The snake in the reeds, the deeper hole?
I was all figured
Throwing my soul to the dog where you live
Back in a corner, resigned to yourself
I told you to breathe — it didn’t help.
Could’ve been different, now just another call cleaning the mess
You don’t wanna feel taken apart
You wanted to heal
We were home blacking it out,
All of the marks never amounting.
It’s a long walk back to the gift
With someone to meet and nothing to fear
I could write it all in a song
You would’ve laughed
You were the best at outrunning yourself
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4. |
Sackcloth
03:19
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Thomas, you’re making some headway
touching the dark parts, seeing the Lord
Hold me while all of the lines shake
blurring the meaning
keeping a code
We had a long ride all for
reasons I don’t have anymore
Knelt down by the mark of an old way —
back when you knew how the light came about
Poor thing, just the shell of a nice thought
you were hoping to hallow,
now you’re seeming to doubt
If you’re changing your life, I won’t.
Ashes and sackcloth over our love,
turning to salt
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5. |
Safeway
03:40
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You should’ve left me
At the Safeway
In the backseat
Like a dog at the window
Leave a crack
Let the air flow
When you dreamed of a good life,
Did you think I’d grow?
All of the waiting,
Just to hold me up against the wall
And tell me my name.
Back in the basement
You were pious, I was singing
For the light of a city
Floating high above the day
Now, it’s a chorus
In a dark house
While you’re waiting on the door
I’ve got pages
They’re all empty
Would you fill me in?
You know it’s a haven when I hold my tongue
Dream reoccurring when you open up
And amend my love
Heavy on the dial, you wake and it’s gone.
So long
You could’ve filled me
With the luck I was fearing
Every night, unavailing
But when you held me
It was easier
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6. |
When I Go
03:48
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Even in the harder way you want to feel right,
breathing with the other keeping time
We were in the water
Filling up the ceiling
Leaking through the border in my place
The whole sinking in the dirt
Before you found it
With all you wouldn’t take
When I go
You were keeping tabs on anyone,
Making all that I intended to erase
A holograph of older time
In every waking day
The whole sinking in the dirt
The home of the world you wanted
When I was on the way
Heaven across my face
I wondered how you would age
When I go
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7. |
Open Bloom
03:48
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Look around for any sign or call
Lazarus out the grave and all
Sing about the only one who saw
and keep the light on near you
I’m casting off the weight with you
Our signal lost in open bloom
The way you are
A mark on the longing
You feel it weigh you down
So deep in the water
You muffle all the sound
A kind of saint, you walk on air.
In solemn age and easy care
I’m casting off the weight with you
Our signal lost in open bloom
Let the light come on, just say you will
I’m on the end, I’m even still.
You wonder how
The way you are.
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8. |
Muttering God
03:42
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It’s raging now, when you came
I’d forgotten how you were raised
Like some muttering god you would take
All my calling out in the wake
All the frailest you would ravage
Saw you cover it up in your shade
I would write it in a ballad to your name
See you’re right, summer died while you were
Grinning like a bastard if I felt better
When I felt you out you were cold
Sing my song with everyone you know
Some are asking for the magic
Some are dying to know where you lay
Like a reason you had held me
Simple ways you erase every day
I’ve seen enough
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9. |
Weekend
04:12
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Keep it around like a secret
For a long drive or the weekend
How all of it burns in the season
Our city sun-dried in the evening
Well it’s a hard life and you leave it well alone
Catching figures in the high beams
Our little death trap humming through the empty street
And you keep asking all around—
Still burning off the edge of the night before —
For someplace warm and dark
Where you can let it settle down
Are you calling to tell me why you’re always freaking out?
Well I know you and I don’t mind.
Is it coming, a time when you’re alone and in the light?
It’s easy work to find you now.
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10. |
All At Once
04:16
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Build a home inside your love, I could ever
Nail my longing to your door
If you waver, then I’ll know
I could only feel your doubt like a horror
Carry all the light we told
Singing over
In the dark now
I felt wrong
You’re weighed down
All at once, finding it out
I could only hear your call in the reeling
I was eager to the thought
Call it even
Like I could never take your ode
It was a letter down my throat
How could you make it all feel known?
Stringing the heart up
Here in the dark now
I felt wrong
You’re weighed down
All at once
Singing the light down
I know how
You’re weighed down
All at once, finding it out
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Convinced Friend Providence, Rhode Island
A.S. Wilson, alone and with others.
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